Annelisa
Suddenly, my world feels like it’s crashing down. How could he do this? I was convinced that what we had was meaningful. To both of us. He had never complained about distance before… Why is it suddenly a problem now…?
I start to hyperventilate as I set my phone aside and curl up into a ball, hugging my knees close to my chest.
Why would he do this?
Why her?
Why not me?
Why am I not enough?
Why can’t I ever be happy?
I silence my sobs as best as I can to not alert my parents, or my brother for that matter. For half a minute, I stay there, trembling with despair, watching my screen dim to black with inactivity… Before it lights up again with a quiet vibration.
It’s him. I pick up my phone and wipe away my tears to read.
The ball in my throat feels as if it doubles in size as my vision blurs again. I blink away my tears as I struggle to type my response.
As I watch the ‘typing...’ animation at the bottom of my screen, I pray that he’ll add something along the lines of “I ended up changing my mind”, “she ended up breaking up with me”, or even “I was just joking”.
He doesn’t.
He goes offline. I don’t have the strength to answer anymore.
I put away my phone and hide under the covers, shaking with sobs.